I Wish You Knew

All the things I wish you knew


I wish you knew how I feel inside

I wish you knew how many times I cried

I wish you knew you made me feel I’d died


I wish you knew how I felt about you

I wish you knew what I'd do

I wish you knew the chance you blew


I wish you knew my inner world

I wish you knew all my thoughts

I wish you knew my space


As I sit here I see

All of the things I couldn't be

All of you not being accepting of me


As I sit here I see

All of you so young and free

All of you so chaotic and stormy


As I sit here I see

All of your lack of emotional maturity

All of your shallow insecurity


As I sit here I see

All of your shadows projected onto me

All of the things that you could not be


As I sit here I see

The great divide that is inside of me

The insecurities that will always be


As I sit here I see

The mud in the puddle is settling

The emotional divide is clear


I wish you knew all of the things I'd do

I wish you knew how much I care about you

I wish you knew what I would go through


I wish you knew how I really see you

I wish you knew that I have a clue

I wish you knew even a sliver of what I do


I wish you knew what they will do to you

I wish you knew what they will drag you through

I wish you knew what you are capable to do


In the end, it does not matter what you know

In the end, it does not matter what I know

It only matters where your emotions flow


I wish you knew I harbor no hard feelings

I wish you knew that I understand

I wish you knew I only regret the feeling that I could have done something but chose not to

I wish you knew you could have spoken up

I wish you knew it was safe to do so


I hope someday, with someone you are able to be yourself

I hope someday, you don't have to force your demand

I hope someday, you can flow with another like winds filled with sand

I hope someday, you aren't a prisoner to your mother's beckon call

I hope someday you find it all


I wish you knew, I truly love you

I wish you knew, I will live without you

I wish you knew, what you've taught me

I wish you knew, you are special

I wish you knew, I can hold space

I wish you knew, I am moving on

I wish you knew, I'm already gone


Pete WilletteComment